Saturday, June 18, 2011

Lesson #1

Dear Baby,

I am 4 1/2 months pregnant with you. That fact, right there, brings us to our very first lesson:

Life has its own plans, and there's nothing you can do to fight it.

This might make you feel a little powerless, Baby, but I assure you Life is smarter than we are. In the end, Life (or God, if you're religious) makes sure the right thing happens. For the most part, I think, Life has our best interests at heart. We might think we know what's best for us, but we are emotional and not very logical animals. Perhaps what we think is best for us at the time is not truly what will make us happiest in the long run.

Your very existance is proof of this. According to all the medical tests I've had done over the years, regarding my fertility (or lack thereof), my only hope of ever getting pregnant was to take fertility drugs; and, even then, the chances of conception didn't look good. That's what the doctors had to say. Life had a different opinion. There were other guys who wanted to have a baby with me; and at the time I was with them, I thought I wanted a baby with them too. I guess Life was waiting for your daddy and me to meet; because suddenly, against all scientific reasoning, here you are! I couldn't be more happy. I'm very grateful that Life decided to let me conceive a baby when the right Daddy entered our lives. And that's exactly what I think happened: Those other guys weren't the right guys to be your Daddy, so Life made sure I didn't conceive when I was with them.

(Now, don't ever think you're a mistake. I know that sometimes kids who find out they weren't "planned" think that this means they weren't wanted. Plans and wants are two completely different things! You've always been wanted by both me and your daddy. There was never even a second that we regretted your existance. There was never even a second that we considered not keeping you. Know that, despite the fact that you were a surprise, you were never thought of as a mistake or an accident.)

So, I want you to remember that just because Life doesn't give you what you want when you first ask for it, that doesn't mean you'll never get it. It just means that Life is waiting for the right time to give you everything you desire! In the end, everything works out the way it should be: You're job is to simply keep hoping and keep believing that Life will make things right in time.

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